I remember the day you turned up.

I remember the day you turned up, you just slipped in there like you had a right.

I kinda guessed you wasn't going anywhere. You got yourself comfy and started to take over, like you'd always been there.

I knew I was going to have to fight hard to try & get you out.

But you were so aggressive so determined.

Pretty soon you where controlling my mind as well as my body. I tired to push you away you made me feel invaded. For the first time in my life, I was not in control.

My determination not to let you win was powerful for so long, it felt if maybe I just stood my ground, pretended and got on with my life as best I could, I could pretend that you hadn't come that day, and that one day I'd make you leave!

But there you were spreading yourself, making yourself known, like you owned me.

You made me feel contaminated! I couldn't even say your name. I didnt want to say it out loud!

Its not like anyone in the world liked you or had time for you... in-fact everyone loathed you!

You had ruined so many other lives.

Now you had got to me! I didn't talk about you at first to anyone. I didn't want your name rolling off my tongue!

You made me feel different about myself.

I become trapped most days in the home, that's what you wanted, always controlling me.

You decided what I ate, what I drunk, when I would sleep! You made me lose friends ... but also found the true ones!

Some days I was so angry with you, Other days I just tried to shut you out.

Friends came the ones that weren't afraid of you. They would share their ideas of maybe how to get rid of you, they'd heard stories like this before, and read papers about the best sort of defence. But once they had seen that there was no getting you out and you were there for the long term they just hurt too, and although I still had some fight in me, the slow painful process of you entangling yourself into my body and mind had gone so far there was no way back.

You were now going to finish me!

You had your living space! And now I was nothing but a shell, you had eaten away at me for so long...

oh yes, it was time to move on to your next victim, I had served my purpose!

oh yes!, I remember the day you turned up.