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I know what it's like to be blessed and to be cursed

I have texts that are left on read, no need to respond

Walked the earth, thinking I am upfront

But I hide behind emotions, let's say the ride has been rough

I have heard, that I have to move on

I don't want, to be put on a spot, not anymore

If I am to end my days alone, I guess the deal is all done

I do crave, to have a family but that dream seems to be gone

Now I put more energy in repairing the room upstairs

No more repainting, I'm renovating with blood and with tears

Reconstructing and opening Pandora's box

Letting it all out, like Naruto did with the 9 tailed fox

I don't know if I am even healthy, sometimes it scares me

Always exhausted, I guess that what happens when you don't eat

Always drinking lots of soda and energy drinks, today it was Pepsi

I can't focus because I lack the mental energy, even tried to stay clean

I can't lie , therapy's been helping, teaching me new things

Showing me, that things I thought were buried, weren't buried too deep

Well, except anger, he and I don't really speak

Even though he haunts me in nightmares, when I close my eyes to sleep

Sticks and stones, they have broken my bones

There is still so much of which I have to atone

Crucial years ahead, I hope I heal just in time

Enough to transform, I guess I'll be Optimus Prime.