I Mourn For You

I heard your subtle hints of the end

I chose to ignore because it was easier to pretend,

That you were okay,

That the sickness would go away

I remember you held my hand and said “Please let me go.”

I shook my head, unaccepting, then I whispered, “No.”

I mourn for you today. I’ll mourn for you tomorrow,

And all the years that follow.

Though I felt you slipping away,

I cried and prayed that you would stay,

Your smiles, your hugs meant the world to me,

I love you so much, my beautiful, sweet and feisty granny.

You held my hand through storms unknown,

through quiet battles others weren’t shown.

I often think of the times you held me tight,

The time you hugged me the entire night,

I felt safe, a warmth that still lingers,

Like the time you gave me comfort when I smashed my fingers,

Without you here, nothing is the same,

It’s too hard for me to even hear your name,

Without a tear falling from my grieving eyes,

Filling every room with silent cries,

I mourn for you today. I’ll mourn for you tomorrow,

And all the years that follow.

Remembering the good times we shared,

The times you hugged me when I was scared.

I can’t write all that’s in my heart today,

but please know, it’s too hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

I love you. I miss you, my beautiful, sweet granny.