I'm Tired of Being Tired

I’m tired of being tired

Unable to live, don’t know what thrive means

A prisoner in a body that has never been the dream

Longing to be valued despite the physical

Never blending in, yet always invisible

I’m tired of being tired

Overwhelming exhaustion and pain

Trapped in this body, this life, and my brain

Every step mapped out, can I make it to the finish line

All consumed by something most will never have to pay mind

I’m tired of being tired

Hiding from the world is easier than admitting that I need accommodations

It lessens the mental fatigue that comes from the unknown and unexpected

I try to navigate a world that doesn’t know what to do with this much flesh

Always watching life go by, little happiness, no rest

I’m tired of being tired

A set of problems more complex than simply putting down the cake

An addict like any other, yet treated as though it is a choice that I would want to make

Its name and persona is more complex than laziness or greed

If I had all the answers I would finally be able to breathe

I’m tired of being tired

To go out just once and not have to think, will I fit in, will their stares make me weak

An internal scream only I can hear, all of my confidence left shattered in the mirror

I wear my self-doubt on my sleeve, something most people can hide

What a privilege it must be to go through life rosy eyed

I’m tired of being tired

I am more than my size

I have value beyond my weight

I’m tired of being tired

I long to be great