I'M SORRY

I'm sorry.

I don't know what to say. I don't know how to say it.

I'm deeply deeply sorry and I don't have a better way how to describe it.

I'm sorry that I can't be there for you when you need me most.

I'm sorry I can't give you what your rightfully need.

I'm sorry, I'm not the friend I'm supposed to be.

I promised myself to stop caring.

I promised myself to stop the relationship, because it was hurting us both.

I promised myself, to stop trying to help a helpless situation and pray instead,

But what mind can tell a heart to stop caring?

What human can watch another suffer and walk away?

What friend would let her friend down the way I did?

So I stayed. I tried. I listened. I cared.

But

I'm sorry. I can't do this anymore.

Whatever I can give is not what you need.

The help it takes is something I don't have.

I can no longer be that listening ear, helping hand or comforting shoulder.

When you're pulling me down with you.

I'm sorry. So deeply sorry.

I cry envisioning what will be once I let go.

I wail, asking G-d why He let this happen to both of us.

I pray that someone else can be the friend I can't be.

I beg G-d to give you the help I can't give.

You are my friend. You will forever be my friend.

I will forever think about you.

I will forever care about you.

I will forever pray for all the pain to go away.

I'm so sorry. So deeply sorry.

I'm sorry I'm letting go...