I Like You

I hate myself

Because I like you.

You’re everything I’m not.

Calm.

Blonde.

Infuriatingly calm.

I don’t like people.

I don’t wanna like you.

But when I see you

My heart does this thing

My brain will never understand.

You’re not my dream man

You’re just a little boy

Who will break my heart

And I know it.

You don’t make sense

But you do.

I’ll never tell you

That I like you.

I’ll just pretend I don’t

And let my eyes betray my racing heart

Every time we talk.

I’ll dream of holding your hand

But never ask you.

I’ll spray your cologne on my pillows

Think of you before I go to sleep

But I won’t call or text or answer.

I don’t like people.

Remember?