I had you but...

Growing inside me for nine months had me at pause

But now I realize why

Why now? I’ve come so far

‘til I have taken a halt

I had you but now I’m sad

I can’t stop crying now

I overfeed myself to get the milk you deserve

My breasts swell in pain

Heavy like a pound ton weighing down on me

You’re not a mistake

You’re the best mistake

I wish I should’ve known better

No, it's not fault, It’s mine

Daddy’s not here, I’m here

You had me at hello around the clock

24/7, every week, morning, noon and night

Exhausted, no plans for me just you

I love you, but I’m powerless

My energy is drowned out

like a candle blown from the wind

I’m crying now

Yet you comfort me

I look up

I thank God I had you

I had you and I want to say "I love you"