I feel like a shadow of myself

Am I just a shadow of myself?

Oh, nooo, I believe I am.

My life revolves around one spot.

It's difficult to see what I'm doing.

No progress at all.

I feel worthless to myself.

I'm not sure why I feel this way.

Oh, God, where are you?

Act and show me the light.

Direct my footsteps.

I feel like a shadow of myself.

But I'm alive.

I don't know.

If I'm going or coming back.

Am I hallucinating?

Am I under a spell?

What am I?

Sometimes I'm glad.

Sometimes I'm angry.

I despise myself for who I have become.

I feel like a shadow of myself.