i dont remember

I do not remember what it felt like to die

I do not know blurred edges of my life

Shrinking into a pinpoint

Becoming nothing at all

I do not recall air, once so effortless

Becoming so cruel and unreachable

Body writhing, twitching, begging for breath

I do not remember blood settling in the mouth

Like wet iron

Sneaking its way down my throat, into my lungs

I cannot call to mind freezing cold

Weight of my own flesh and bones

Pinned to my bed like a broken bird

I do not remember body giving up on brain

Mind melting away like chalk in the rain

Curled up, all alone

Choking, puking, crying, bleeding

Dying.