I Don't Deserve It.

I used to think the world was okay

And I could have everything I wanted

But then the reality hit me

I learned it in the hard way

Love does not come easy

Even if I tried to find it

I’d have to go through a lot

And I have, for a long time

Just when I was about to earn it

I ran away from everything

Because when I’m going to have it all

There’s always that little voice

Whispering in the back of my mind;

“I don’t deserve it.”

Out of fear, I dropped out

And I stepped back

Not wanting to experience it again

And so I stopped there

But I shouldn’t have done that

Because I’ve lived with the regret now

Wishing I could’ve continued and kept fighting

So I wouldn’t be hurting and struggling

And battling my own demons inside my head.