I can't tell you how I love you because I might forget how it began, uncertain and excited. I might mention how you stopped my breath on our first date in your orange crewneck sweater. You walked up to me from the other side of the bar and I felt like the luckiest person knowing you were there for me. And I might mention how I left your side because I knew how long you might stay if I didn't. I might also mention how you left the second time because I hadn't told you.
I can't tell you how I love you because your friends would beg you to leave such negligence. They couldn't understand, Even if I mentioned how I don't own you, but instead know you, and delight in your autonomy. I might mention how your love, deep and romantic, for others makes me feel more at home with you. More loved by you. How your ability to share inspires admiration and requited community that is essential to our thriving.
I can't tell you how I love you because your mother would clutch pearls and never look at me the same again. I might mention how the sun catches a particular glint in your eye that is escalated quickly by a mischievous brow raise or disapproving furrow. And I might mention how that escalated glint turns my breath to hot fumes relieved only by the pressure of your lips on my skin.
But I wouldn't... At least, not in front of your mother.
I can't tell you how I love you because I still don't know the extent of it yet.
About the Creator
kp
I am a non-binary, trans-masc writer. I work to dismantle internalized structures of oppression, such as the gender binary, class, and race. My writing is personal but anecdotally points to a larger political picture of systemic injustice.
'20/20'
"Do It Again" the track that would ultimately open the Beach Boys final album on Capitol Records which was released on February 10th 1969 had originally been released as a single in August of 1968. The track was the first of many post-Pet Sounds era throwbacks to the early Beach Boys sound which would become continually more cliched and eventually lead the Beach Boys to the level of self-parody they would eventually succumb to in the 1980s while their closest contemporaries The Beatles nearing the end of their run in 1969 would go on to be viewed as the most influential band of all time. However, the song itself is not bad on its surface, and it opens with a futuristic sounding (for 1969) drumbeat captured by then-Beach Boys engineer Stephen Desper using tape delays on the drums performed by Dennis Wilson and John Guerin. The song has been re-recorded numerous times over the years on various Beach Boys-related projects most notably the 2011 re-recording at Capitol studios featuring the five surviving Beach Boys at the time backed instrumentally by various members of both the Brian Wilson Band and Mike Loves touring "Beach Boys" to promote the then upcoming Beach Boys 50th Anniversary reunion tour in 2012. The hammering and power drill sound at the end of the song was an excerpt from a track called "Workshop" that was to be a part of the uncompleted "SMiLE" album.
By Sean Callaghan6 days ago in Beat
Comments (3)
Oh count the reasons I can't tell you that I love you. Nicely written.
Oh, just lovely, kp
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