I am sorry but I cant

I am sorry but I cant

I am sorry I know I dont understand

I can not meet You

I know

I dont understand I cant explain this feeling yesterday I really wanted to meet today I even cant

I cant express this feeling its like I have been loving somebody else I dont know who and when but these feelings are stronger I cant meet You today I feel like I need be above all these emotions and its too much overwhelming I already got headache it feels like I need run away from You I need my world my space which I havent got I cant explain You wont understand its just not the best moment I dont even feel healthy enough Your energy seems so heavy each day I cant take all this stress on my shoulders I had enough of others I need a space in a peaceful realm this time for real all these noises from machines workers and people each day its too much for my nervous system to take but its not even that I feel a different space something new as if i was already there safe good healthy better I cant explain but you are not there

I will not meet You tomorrow and today

I know you have made your stay longer to meet but I cant make it I feel nothing and I dont know what to say I just wish stay in silence some days I am afraid you will not understand this shift this change

I just need a rest I wish to say to get better but as I know world life I am not sure if saying to get better if i go through tornado each day such words may not make sense in this reality of today i know you are completely out of the wave these days You come from different world but its not even that I just cant make it tonight

its that all right ?

to an unknown one