I'am not she

I don't know whats wrong with me

I don't understand what's wrong with me!

Don't nobody get me!

I mentally fucked up in the head

I'm not stupid or slow!

I just been through so much holding it in for years you see

Wondering how people would think of me how they would treat me..

Seeing how people treated me seeing how people think of me

And after so many years of wondering,wondering just came a part of me

Now over thinking things have came a problem to me!

Trying to keep from doing one thing and forgetting how I could do another thing.

Now I gotta keep from doing anything!

I talk about how I feel they might look at me crazy, they might think I'm crazy.

I don't know how to explain how I feel !!

I just know I'm hurt in the inside so bad I can't control it I can't keep holding it in!!!!

I hold it in cause I don't wanna be the talk!

I don't want nobody to speak bad on my me.

I being trying to do it on my own I been trying to learn cause I didn't have a teacher so I try to teach my self.

I've teach myself what i didn't won't and what I didn't want to become but I feel like everybody wants me to be perfect, that everybody thinks I shouldn't have made any mistakes.

I did and I hate that I did but when it get throwing in my face I hate that I'm not perfect I hate that they see me only this way and not who i'm truly am.

They couldn't see me for who i'm trying to become!!

They don't see I'm trying to be the best me, they only see me for my mistake what I have done wrong.

They don't understand I tried to do better

I tried to do better i'm trying to do better I want better for me!

Now I know what I want for me i don't know where to start i don't how to make the pain end!

I don't know how to make the happiness begin

I don't know what's next i don't know how to live Ha! giving i never lived!

I don't know how to live just for me!

I don't know how to love me when It seems like nobody loves me that I want to love me so I take it as if they can't love me, well I just now know why I can't love me.

How can I love me when they don't love me!

How can they love me or not love me when they don't even know the true me.

They don't know me! But say they know me, but would if they know me and I just don't know me or I don't wanna see that that's me.

No I can't believe that's me I can't believe that that's just all of me,

I know that couldn't be me, I know I'm better than she, she

Is who y'all think or what y'all think of me.

SHE IS NOT ME!

SHE CAN'T BE ME!

The person I see is not she it's me!

I might be fighting what y'all thought of me as what they guided me to be.

Now I'm trying to have control of myself,

So I say she is not me, I am me and I will become the best of me.

She will not matter to me she will not be seen within me!

SHE WILL FLEE!

I will out shine she I will be the best me!

The real me that's been hiding inside of me............. I AM NOT HER

I AM NOT SHE!!!! ....... I AM ME !!!! ;P