I am not Happy

I am not happy

I won't lie and say I

am happy. I may laugh

and smile everyday

but deep down inside

my heart i despise life

it's self.

Sometimes i feel it was

a waste of time for me

to born in this disease called

life.

Whatever I do in life is

not enough. I am not

enough. I wish I could go

and stay in a cave, be there

alone get eaten by wild

animal.

I wish I could close my

eyes and when I open

them maybe things will

be different.

I am not happy

I won't lie and say I

am happy