I Am Changing

I am changing. Much like the ink in an uncapped pen. One day I functioned properly, but so many other days have gone by left wide open and unprotected, I have finally begun to run low on productivity, and how well I once worked for you.

I am changing. And I feel the difference daily. But it’s not constant. Persistent, yes. But laid back. This shift in me is very… personified. It has a mind of its own. A strategy even. Clever enough to call out to me. To capture my attention. Yet calm and faithful enough not to pressure me.

I am changing. This shift feels like… I’m being courted. Not by an external energy, but by my own personal desires. Pursued by by my inner self. This shift does just enough to have me sitting on the edge of my seat. It does a little more than the bare minimum, leaving my intuition completely untriggered causing me to wonder, “what’s coming?”

I am changing. And I look forward to what the final result will look, feel, smell, sound and taste like. It’s so close I can almost picture it all vividly, wildly in my mind. This shift that is becoming Me, is the reason I keep going. It is slowly, but certainly teaching me how to spend more time with and on myself. Encouraging me, challenging me even, to love more of myself… daily.

I am changing. This shift in self is showing me that it is okay to be me. All of me. The part that feels low and lonely. The part that overthinks. The part that feels shame for making mistakes. And of course the part of me that sometimes overlooks my best qualities. She says it’s okay because she will guide me into an inner-standing that all of those are only parts and pieces to a more complete and wonderful puzzle that our God named Joia. I am divinely chosen, a literal rare jewel. Meant to bring nothing less than joy in and around the people who love me most, including myself.

Because I am changing, each day I am choosing to focus a little more on myself than I did the day before. I am changing out of this costume I thought was my own and into the skin divinely fit for me.

I am changing. I am changing the narrative; from negative to positive. I am shifting the way I feel about myself. I am shifting the way I see myself. I am evolving in the way I think about the world in and outside of myself. I am updating my standards. I am upgrading the so called qualifications that determine the way my belief system works.

Therefore, I am changing the way I take care of myself. This shift is for no other reason than for the greater good of me. I am finally stepping into who Joia is meant to be. Unapologetically changing me.

- JoiaSimone 💚