Hopeful Tries

I'm trying to work on music,

Trying to steer my mind away,

I'm trying to work on music,

But, my heart has gone astray.

I've dug myself this hole,

I've fallen for the feelings,

I've again taken the wrong road,

Waiting for a text this evening.

I'm trying to work on music,

I'm trying to let my heart feel light,

I'm trying to work on music,

But, you’re on my mind heavy tonight.

I've talked myself into this mess,

Now I cannot find the way out,

I let my feelings run and catch,

Back then, I had little doubt.

To see how you have changed,

Since you’ve returned from your journey,

To see how little I have gained,

All I feel is worry,

Worried that you would do,

The things you are doing now,

Worried that you would go ghost,

This time I don’t see how,

How or what I did so wrong,

Maybe I was getting too close,

So now I sit and write this song,

To the destroyer of my hopes.