Homeless

Homeless

Felt your absence before you left,

Your body was still there,

Your eyes still looked at me,

Your arms kept me safe in a sweet embrace,

But you were long gone.

Your side of the bed is empty of your soul

Morning light hurts as much as the darkest of the nights

And time is a speedy train, unstoppable and merciless.

Felt the emptiness even though you still filled our home with you.

Your presence, your anger, your despair,

Your voice invading every corner, every tiny bit of space.

Your life sliding through my fingers,

Screaming that you were no longer mine.

Felt your loss as a punch in the stomach,

Betrayal does not sum up the enormity of what just happened

It is the homelessness that hurts,

You were my home, my soulmate, my man

With you, I felt invincible,

Now I am a shadow of what we once were.