Hollow earth

My mind’s trippin’

running, spinning.

No telling what

I might have been.

If given half a chance

To move up or move over.

One big break or one step closer

to making something

of this life, this moment.

Instead of just getting by or getting older.

Watching everyone die.

I’m a survivor. left behind, beyond circumstance not sure why I’m still here.

Surviving everything that’s tried to kill me.

I’m still livin. Not the dream, yet but, I know it will be.

I’m more than this!

More than the streets.

The streets that made me.

Turned on me and took my baby.

never even saw that coming.

Hard running,

I was blindsided.

Now, every breath, every heart beat

My life just kills me.

This binding struggle

A flash I can’t unsee.

This one foot first

And then goes the other. You

I amble on

But, my legs don’t hold me.

I fall to the earth.

I scream ‘it’s not fair’ My life continues.

You still are not here.

My heart is empty.

I don’t want to live in this world

Without You.

I watch it spin

Wish I could see you or hold you.

Broken pieces

Of people

Left in your wake.

Your babies. your brother, your best friend.

Lost in my river of grief.

I cannot reach them.

Where are you?

My heart is screaming, bleeding

I cry, I pray, I sacrifice

I’m left still needing.

I’m helpless,

dealing with this life.

Just like Lyle says.

How can I ever get this right

If I can’t even do THIS?!

Everything’s so wrong

don’t want this fight, this life

I DID NOT CHOOSE THIS!

My life and it’s changes

I wish I could erase this.

I just want my home

Clean clothes, my basic needs met.

I miss so much my family

So much emptiness.

Can’t erase this.

The time spent chasing tails

Empty dreams and power trips. this isn’t what it’s supposed to be.

who’s got me?!

I got me, like always mom raised a warrior.

One good tremor tho

it all breaks down.

I’m not even sure

How I survived this far

Chain reacting explosions

Blast my world, my life, my heart

Over and over I’m ready for peace. need this war to be over

I need release.

These things I want safety, a home, my love, my life, my dreams, my heart

Family.

I long to be out of the sight

Safe

From those who’d bring harm to me Take mine for their own Leaving misery I long to go home

Where I want to be. to find happiness

Be with my family.

Head in the clouds

Heart full of song Love and laughter.

Somewhere I belong.

Tired of struggling

being afraid.

failing my heart

The price that was paid.

But, I’ve made it this far

There’s no stopping this path.

I’ll make you proud, keep living and dreaming

I’ll keep going

I will survive somehow.

But, I’m really not sure

What my life is now.