Holding back

Something keeps happening to me

I am shown the way and do not want to leave

If it’s all bad news

Tell me why do I make it so hard to choose

The door is open but I feel trapped by my emotions

There is no love lost yet I’m still trying to keep something flowing

Unhealthy as it is, I’ll find myself searching for the reasons

Even though this love affair was just for the season.

I don’t want you to hurt too, I just want you to see the pain I’m going through.

Was it me or was it you?

Nobody in particular to blame, now I’m drowning into a shame.

I knew it was all fun and games

Because it was a dream, nothing was going to change.

Lost in the beauty of what the future can hold

Then reality sets, that future was already told.

It was never worth it to go

But it was a great dream sold.