Hide N’ Seek Heart

I often play a game of hide and seek with my heart

I will turn my back

Count to seemingly infinity

When I open my eyes it is ii where to be found

I will wonder

Playfully looking

As if I’m searching for it but and really

Coifully overturning rocks

Cheekily checking behind doors

In a single song way calling out,

“Come out, come out wherever you are!”

Grinning as if I have the upper hand

Then overtime the smirk silently sliding from my face

Replaced with furrowed brow

And Botox like like stare into the void

Realizing I haven’t the faintest idea where I left it

Where I last saw it

Have you seen it

Please — have you?

Would you tell me if you did

The last time I did

I think I was a kid

20 some odd years ago

I buried it in the sand

Only digging it up to place it in the wrong hands

And then burry it again

This space in my chest has not thumped and pumped announce of ligh through theses veins

Since I don’t know when

Shhhh….

Can you hear it

There is a murmur somewhere out there

And I know it is looking for me

Maybe still humming with hope

Despite all the abandonment

Maybe

Shhhh…

Please

I can handle it

I Can Handle It

I CAN HANDLE IT

My love please

If you could just push some passion back into these veins

I promise to never leave

No more disassociating

No more putting you down

And walking away

I won’t bury you in the dirt no more

Stay —

Please

Reveal yourself to me

I’m still looking for you

Every. Single. Day.