Here I Am Again

Here I am again,

inpatient again,

having my freedoms restricted again,

Self sabotaging myself again,

crying for help again,

hurting myself again.

But there’s some differences this time.

This time I have a son I want to go home to.

He is my everything.

This time I have a husband I want to go home to.

He is my anchor.

This time I’m realizing how much they mean to me

and how much I miss them.

This time I want to get better for them.

This time I won’t give up.

I may be here again,

but my story isn’t over,

and this time I’ll get better again.