Her

If You ever heard of “chasing the dragon” and if I’m being honest with myself, you’re the dragon, ill never catch. Furthermore,I frequently find myself deep in thought thinking introspectively, about you, me, the pursuit and the dragon. Its off putting to me that I find myself thinking about how I dream for this day to walk in, walk out, leaving you mystified and entranced in what could be.

The longer I ponder the reward and the risk of catching you. Will I be the same the longer I chase this beautifully colored mystical dragon. And For the first time in a long time I have everything I waited for seeing you in peace and walking out away with the simplest transaction that leaves me with the reward of the highest social magnitudes, seeing you again. And I’m weirdly content with just that.

It took me long enough to realize thats enough. Take that as you will, its not a bad thing. Seeing you again. For me, that was something I worked incredibly hard to find the courage to face a beautiful red dragon and again for that simple exchange left me torn with pursing you or walking away with nothing more than that simple transaction, and that ill treasure forever.

The peaceful sight of just us, talking again, brought a closure I never thought i’d find and be okay with. You’re that missing puzzle piece i thought was gone but in this introspection i found life is better in the replacing that forever long hunt for the unachievable pursuit of the dragon.