Harder Now

I rolled up to Houston

Inside my head

Grabbed a pack of beer

And brother’s cigarettes

We stayed up ‘til dawn

And I crashed on the couch

Woke up to a coffee cup

And headed out

Playing songs

I only saw him once a year

And damn, if he looked fine

“What’s on your mind?”

Don’t know what it is

But it’s harder now

To marry up myself

And figure out

Am I living

Am I giving up

And leaving town

For harder now

I called up a woman

I used to know

She lived out in Humble

By the EZ Go

Had a couple kids and then a young divorce

They ran in the front yard

We sat on the porch

Playing songs

I never saw

How beautiful she was in summer light

She asked, “Are you all right?”

Don’t know what it is

But it’s harder now

To marry up myself

And figure out

Am I living

Am I giving up

And leaving town

For harder now

And when I left for Tulsa

My daddy called

Asking if I filled her up

And checked ‘em all

I said, “Something’s wrong.”

And nothing on the truck

“I’ve had enough.”

He said, “Son, I’ve been around.”

And it’s harder now

To gather up myself

And stick around

Am I living

Am I giving up

And dying now

Because it’s hard

And maybe won’t work out

I said, It’s hard

And getting harder now

Somehow

Somehow

Somehow

I’ll work it out