Guilt

Chains wrap around my ankles, shackles me to the floor

Chains wrap around my wrists, slamming the iron door

Weight and pressure causing me to kneel

Trying not to break, trying not to bend

You will not win

The stone on my back, pushes down

The sudden rush of water, hoping I don't drown

Holding my breath and trying to stand

So much weight holding me in place

Why don't you meet me face to face

When it seems I have lost my will

You let me go and wait until

I have my strength and I make progress

Then you strike again leaving me breathless

You're just so relentless

Squeezing my heart until it cracks

No intention of fully breaking, just showing me what it lacks

That simple strength of acceptance

I am not willing to achieve

Stop making me grieve

I open my mouth to scream

Only to find my voice gone and in your eyes that gleam

You've won this time, this round

But I'm not done playing your game

I will beat you and say your name

Stop suffocating me, stop drowning me

I'm tired of these waves of pain and misery

You will not keep me down

I'm stronger than this, than you, I know how I'm built

I will beat you, and say your name.... Fuck you guilt!