Growing Thru

Lost, scared, alone, and confused. Battered, broken, bruised, and misused...

Blind and searching.

Soul screaming

Heart still bleeding..... but seriously what's the reason.

Negative anxious begging and borrowing. Belittled and baffled all while praying and pondering what's my next move

Alcohol Drugs isolation and confused... wait what was I thinking.. no I shouldn't lose...

Money clothes sex kept me amused.

Gambling taking risks abandoning school.

Failing to learn or listen. Guess I was a fool or was I just being played like a fool

Crying Screaming kicking and pleading.

Tired and useless psychedelic or clueless

Wake up wake up wake up wake up or you're sure to loss.

This isn't the way the creator meant for my life to be.

Studying and still back sliding while trying

Trying to hold on... trying to move forward...trying not to go back.

Where's forward what's ahead... I never found the map or diagram on the road I should take to get ahead.

Meditating and Fading

Fasting and shedding

Crystallized yet nothing seems clear.

Right left up down over there or around here. Where do I turn. Where do I go.. who do I know?

Trusting the process while trusting no one. Loving all of life while feeling isolated and alone.

Come on now universe is this really the best way to learn.

I mean I'm happy and sad yet blissful and emotional.

I'm in love with everybody. No one romantically in love with me. Im engaging my truth. Embracing my gifts.

Letting go of outside forces that trigger my emotions.

Living loving laughing.

Smiling dancing and chanting

Trusting the process and grateful for all of my life's lessons.