Gaara

I've been in and out of depression for three years

Shuffling through it

One time its here, two times here and here again and then its not.

Three years and that's when I knew what depression was. That's when I saw the face of the devil and peeped his eye color

But before then, I was in a lot if bad moods

Lots and lots of them for a long as memory serves me ...

I've done everything I can to survive

Trusted men

Failed

Trusted family

Failed miserably

Trusted in drugs

And they made me sick

Apples that kept the doctors coming

I've been in and out of depression for three years

And in the second I looked into the sun for minutes without blinking

It was yellow and bright till it turned dark and tears run down for no particular reason

I'm at a point in that state I can't explain .

Can't explain anything about how or what or why I'm feeling..

If I'm feeling.

I've been in and out of depression for three years

In the middle of the desert

And im the only thing alive

Been so far away people forgot who I was

And definitely not who I am

I am Gaara

Dead inside

Alone

And nobody can love me but me

FranKenstien personified

A rigor mortis in loop

I'm beginning to like it here

The taste of sand

The sun's tirade

Its all me

Gaara, Gaara of the desert.

By Ken Mills