Funeral for Two

It began so small

A missed meal

A trip to the bathroom

Who knew it would turn out like this?

This soul-crushing, unyielding betrayal

of mind and against body.

As the demon crashes to the surface and there’s nothing,

nothing you can do to protect yourself from the inevitable.

The fight you are in is nothing but a losing one

and there’s nothing you can do about it

Every meal is a battlefield

Before you even knew

Both sides were losing

As you fought for your soul

The demon echoes your thoughts

And adds a twisted edge to those once so pure

“Put down that fork, you don’t need that”

You push it away in utter dismay

And stand from the table as your family watches you go

Every calorie a game of limbo

Dangerously so

The math just like clockwork

As you add up your day

“Never enough” you say in demise

You set a goal much greater than the one before

But it still isn’t enough

As the voice taunts you from afar

The scale becomes your enemy

No escape from the numbers that haunt even your dreams

The menacing demon calling your name

“It’s not enough, step up your game”

But now its too late

You’ve gone too far

And to think this slow suicide could have been prevented

Had the world not conditioned you to think

You were worth less than you are

Looks like your family has a funeral to plan

For the person they once knew

Not this shriveled up shell

Now you lay on the floor

Your heart couldn’t take the pain any more

Malnourished it just couldn’t pump anymore

That dream you had been working so hard for was laying there with you

The future you wanted since a little girl

Shattered before you

A single tear rolls down your cheek

As you realize what you wanted in life

Was standing right before you the whole time

It was never about weight, body, or size

For what you wanted was love, acceptance, and hope

And you had it all along

By no means is this your fault

But that of the demon living in your head

For you had great things if it weren’t for him

That demon is vicious, cruel, and arrogant

To snuff out a life so vibrant and young

With the final words on his tongue

“Guess you were too weak, on to the next one”

Looks like this funeral is for two