Flights & Feelings

so many niggas would rather catch a flight than

to catch feelings

so many missed connecting opportunities

what are you running away from hyphenating to?

vulnerability? emotions? companionship?

yeah it hurts to actually express what the fuck your heart feels

or to lay naked with someone while your clothes are still on

or to be painstakingly honest

about the only pilot you've allowed aboard

is the lie you've convinced yourself of

that circumnavigates

seeking temporary satisfaction

with permanent damage

body counts has never been a thing with me

yet you have to ask yourself

after all the bodies

you've cavorted with

does your soul seek more than all the exchanged energy

random fluids with various joes

i wish i could make you see the worth you possess

i wish i could convince you the only reason worth sticking around

has nothing to do with the stick i carry around

i wish you knew how much i care for you

and yet i realize even if you saw all of that

you might take off on the pavement and run in the wrong direction

because it's easier to pull from the places the arbitrary has kept you safe

than the truth that loving someone isn't always easy

and that's perfectly okay

so to all my frequent fliers cruising the mile high clubs in the sky

from coast to coast

do yourself a favor

when something amazing comes along

& you know it feels right

clearing your landing strip

expand your wings

deboard

with ten toes on the ground

and stay there.

no more flights

just feelings.