Fathers

This week has been a sad one

I really have been blue

The thought of all the many years

I should still have with you

I’ve cried so much my eyes hurt

I’ve cried most everywhere

I’ve cried while cleaning bathrooms

Or hoovering the stairs

I’ve cried at home and cried at work

I even cry when I’m in bed

I want to have you back with me

You’re always in my head

You really were the best Dad

The best in all the land

I just could not be sadder now

I want to hold your hand

A part of me is broken

Smashed to bits, strewn on the ground

It never will be fixed I fear

For you, you can’t be found

I know that you are with us

And I want to make you proud

But I just can’t shift this feeling

Can’t shift this dreary cloud

I kind of hope that writing

My feelings down this way

Will help to ease this pain I feel

It’s stuff I just can’t say

So Dad, I really miss you

My hearts smashed upon the floor

I wish I could’ve saved you

I wish that I did more

I’m angry at the world right now

I’m finding this quite tough

Feel like life is going no where

Without you it’s not enough

I guess it’ll get better

But I frankly don’t see how

I’m pretty sure it can’t get worse

Than how I feel right now

Thank god I have the children

To stop me feeling blue

Something to pour my life into

Just like you used to do

©️Vicki Lucas