Faint Thoughts, Heavy Feelings

I feel Hot

My skin begins to vibrate

My chest thumps

and heaves with heavy breath

sweat pools in my palms

as my throat dries

…

My vision blurs

And my legs wobble

I look for help

But I’m alone.

I try to focus

Find something steady

And suck in a deep breath

Close my eyes

Wiggle my fingers

And toes

…

The heat in my chest

Fails to reach my head

My thoughts go cold

A line of red descends

My hands feel for something… sturdy

And trail the hard wood

To the floor

…

I fold my knees

Rest my head

and breathe

Before the coldness takes over

I can already feel the pins

and needles spreading over my skin.

I squeeze my eyes tight

And search for the light.

Before it finds me.

…

I left it here

The last time I fell

Somewhere deep inside my mind

To guide me

Out from the dark.

I have to hurry

As my shoulders sway.

I draw my last breath of consciousness

And find silence

Here in the in between

Where my inner and outer worlds meet

And then I see it

Flickering in the darkness.

Like a beacon.

…

I let my chest fall

And summon another

As the light shifts behind my eyes

To form pictures

A memory

From my childhood

A single robin

My grandfather

…Love

Hope

Strength.

…..

I've found my anchor.

So I can breathe

again.

I open my eyes

I’m okay.

…..

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