Equanimity

Your actions are difficult to understand

It’s like speaking a spell.

But these intense feelings for you,

isn’t making it any easier to understand.

Please clear up the actions you do.

I may sound harsh.

I don’t mean it

But I just want you to be cautious.

I act like you’re irritating.

But you are very generous.

I want you to fill me with love.

I’ve been searching in my life, just to find someone perfect like you.

Every day, I’ve been doing the same routine.

Getting up,

Sulking,

Surviving another day without you.

My heart is empty without love.

And I’m starting to lose energy.

It's like I’m transparent.

And I’m no key thing in life.

I’m friendly.

And no one can change me.

I want to reveal myself.

My true self.

Should I cover my wound?

Or let it bleed?

I have a great urgency

And that is me being capable of error.

I’m alone in this desolate place.

Watching a thousand of birds flying to the south.

I’m not possible to coming back to life.

Unless I stop being stubborn about it.

Laying there where evil fills the air.

I close my eyes.

Laying there with no excitement.

I come to fathom my understanding of you.

The sun glaring on me.

My face starting to lose color.

And I leave this earth saying

“I Love You Baby. See You in Heaven.”