Enemy Inside Me

Inside me, there is the enemy.

I want to help myself- Can i?

I want to say sorry for my Mood swings.

These doubts, self hatred and everything in between.

Desperate to find my way out.

Now nothing makes sense!

I did alot of failed attempts.

I just want to be happy with myself- Alone by myself.

I started to drown with my thoughts.

And I struggle to breathe.

Is it okay to feel dead by living?

Sorry for myself issues that drains and exhaust me.

Perhaps i'm not meant to have people that will put up with me and stay.

I see myself at the same point- Again.

I understand myself, Yes! - I don't.

What is this exact feeling i'm feeling?

Can somebody help and rescue me?

No, i need to find answers on my own.

Same problem keeps on repeating.

Life is indeed a circle that keeps on repeating.

That enemy inside me.

Is slowly winning and eating me- Alive.

I need to wake up from my fairy tale dream.

Make a wish self, i will keep on hoping.