Embracing Solitude

It gets so lonely at night when I look over my shoulder and realize there’s no one there

The silence screams so quietly

I’m left alone

Only me

Loneliness creeps in

I tell myself that I will be okay

I breathe in the silence

Take it all in

Alone again

Days turn to weeks

Weeks to months

Months to years and yet I still find myself here

Alone

I wake up

I go to sleep

No one beside me but the essence of those who’ve gone their separate ways

Today, just another day of reassuring myself that one day someone will come and stay

But until then

I take it all in

The silent weeping of uncertainty

The ache deep within

Battling feeling unworthy

The silence ringing loudly reminding me

Of all the space still left to fill

I sit quietly

Holding back tears

Embracing the discomfort

Putting in the effort to rid myself of codependency

To recognize that having just me is just enough

That I matter

That my matter is enough to complete me

Silence the voice inside me that echos thoughts of insignificance

I’m different yes but these differences make me priceless

So I rid myself of all the lies left

Embrace the silence

Let it envelope me

Take it all in

Once again

Here I am

Just me

And that is just enough