Elsewhere

Sometimes you have one of those days where you wish to be somewhere else, wondering had you have done things right along the way then maybe you would be elsewhere

Compared to now where you’re dreaming of something that seems to be “vanity” and nothing more yet at the same time you can feel it’s your forthcoming chapter in your own novel

I honestly wish there were some chapters I could’ve gone back and rewrite them, but what’s done is done and now I’m in the situation and circumstances that surround me, although my hope’s not completely diminished by this train of thought because...

At the back of my mind I do have faith that where I desire to be my reality will catch up placing me there when at some point I honestly thought it was impossible

Like most of everybody else I’ve written out a list of what I desire…

Someday, they’ll become reality and I’m not going to take into account anyone else’s perspectives because it’s a list privately kept to myself…

Someday, I’ll get to obtain some space of my own where I‘d finally gain some privacy...

Someday soon, I’ll gain a newer circle comprised of souls whom I can trust dearly, someday I’m bound to make a large amount of money and be financially free… my means will soon change and have an upgrade compared to where it is now

To be honest with you, it’s a mixed bag of emotions I carry because there are somethings I’m truly grateful for such as the amount of wisdom I’ve gained from where I started…

I’m grateful to have gained the wisdom to slow myself down, to live in the present moment,

Up to this point in my life I’ve been rushing to get to the next thing after the next and never was I present as I am now, just writing this I’m thankful to be able to solemnly reflect upon my thoughts whether current or otherwise… I can finally look at the past from a different perspective, something I wasn’t able to do years ago

Several anniversaries are coming up soon, ones that used to mark my failings from that point, but now I can face them with optimism, saying “yes, this happened but I’ve learned from it”

Now I’m able to write a new story for myself where I can stand still in glimmers of hope for a better tomorrow, knowing that someway, somehow everything’s going to be alright

The concerns I may have somewhere in the confines of my conscious mind will soon fade into nothing but a memory of yesterday, that fortune I got a while back read…

“Any doubt you have will soon disappear” and normally I wouldn’t take any of those words from a fortune cookie to heart but for some reason, this one stuck

It’s a comforting thought knowing that any concerns I may have listed mentally are fading, replaced by something more ideal than what stood in place despite what’s going on now

Whether I come into a windfall of money tonight or sometime later

Whether the problems I’m facing today have solutions tied to them by the end of the day, honestly it doesn’t matter to me because I’m choosing happiness despite anything

I’m choosing someway to enjoy the present moment in any way I see fit

Yes, some nights can be challenging, racing those discouraging trains of thoughts in pursuit of encouraging thoughts to repeat to myself but I survive

In the past, I’ve seen myself regain energy reviving where I once thought was a mere memory of what’s behind me.

And I’m sure it’s just the beginning…

Author's Note

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