Eclipse

Eclipse…

Have you ever walked in a dark room with eyes closed?

You are directionless. Afraid of clashing into something

You don’t wanna confront, Scared and Confused

I was in the same Affliction for a long time

But then I met you

You were like a sun in the night

An oasis in desert, like a cool shade

Like north winds between the ocean

Like a land in the abbeys

But then like those winds you flew away

Leaving me in the in darkness, without any moonlight

My heart is all dark but I can fill it with stars if you say yes to stay inside forever

Please bring back the lights to my life that you brought once it is so scary here being alone.

It requires only your smile

I had tears in my eyes when you used to smile to me with your eyes,

Now the tears are of remembering you and the moments.

The time was golden spent with you please come back!

Now I cry a lot with the eyes who use to see you

They too want to see only you were there light

Now the Tears are running out I am crying out blood

We use to be best friends but now you treat me like a stranger walking on road.

You don’t even see me now Like I don’t exist.

You walk past me like I am a window on a wall being closed.

We use to smile at reflections of each others in the window glass.

You use to put ur head on the bench with my earphones

and my songs in them, smiling.

Now you hate me my voice my songs my face my talks.

You just avoid me!

Maybe the oasis was just an mirage

It doesn’t feel good now, I see you on my watch

Going away from me with time. I smile too when I see you smile

But feel like crying the same moment, remembering our last

I wish it’s all just a bad dream, And I want it to break and I wake up in November last year

You said you will never change

But now I see nothing old in you, Is it true that the time is the almighty?

I think No cuz you smile the same way

The same you blink your eyes the same ways you lift your eyebrows the same way you laugh the same way you smile

But not with me now.

You have got better friends then me

But all I got is you. Only you to smile only you to cry only you to laugh.

No one else in the universe I belong to.

It doesn’t feel right now cuz you aren’t with me.

Darkness is all my eyes now see.

I don’t know what happened to us, And I don’t wanna know either. I just want it to pass away.

Like every bad phase did

I am like a bird trapped in the cage gazing the free world through bars.

I will be happy with you even if I am in the cage

I can smile with you till I lose my sanity,

I can write for you till eternity

With you I don’t feel the gravity

I fly, High in the sky of the no limits feeling alive

I talk to stars and they talk to me, Its your face in the

Stars, that I see

I am so weak But I can fight like a tiger for you

I need no guitar to sing with you Don’t need a pen to write

Don’t need a telescope to gaze stars with you cuz ,

You are my Sun in day, The Polaris at night.

MY EVERYTHING

You too know I don’t feel right without you,

You have seen my face when you don’t talk to me,

And you have also seen me during just an eye contact.

Still you don’t understand,

You are the lead singer of my imaginary band,

I need your voice for a steady stand

My lamp is burning low I need some Light,

I can’t walk please give me some flight

The Air is so poisonous, Give me a breath,

I feel so numb right middle the chest

Put ur hand on my heart and please make it gently beat,

And hear those words that never will I speak

You and I sitting on the grass, If you are a day I will never let it pass

You are the only moment that I want to last, If you are my present

I don’t need a past

You are that fairy every day in my dreams,

I hear your voice when I want to scream

Now I wanna fell bad all the time

So sad, I cried once to a baby rhyme

I don’t like to listen to music now

The playlist is on shuffle and I am just skipping songs

Sitting on the bench

No one cares about me, How I feel inside,

The tears become invisible lying in my eyes,

The people don’t like me

Cuz I am not perfect, I am a pebble among stars

No one fits in my vibe, Its only you

But now you also don’t care about me, you are also fed up with me.

I am boring, annoying, and displeasing,

A frustrating presence you wish to escape

And I know the reason is me

I don’t know why I am like this, I don’t wanna be!

But I don’t know from where it all comes off from me

I don’t want you to suffer as I did

May be its just my care for you.

But it always go the wrong way

I know I always ruin the moments

I always mess things up

But my heart is pure; I never mean to hurt you ever

I am sorry! And I can say it a million times

You can yell at me, curse me, Do whatever you want

But please don’t leave me, I’ve got only you

Only you…

You are the moon and I am the sun

The whole earth is in between there to oppose us

I just wait for as eclipse to come, so I can see you face to face

When no one is standing in between

Just your light and my shadow on them

Its been a long time since I saw yr face

Even more since I smile

And an eternity since “ An eyebrow was raised”

It feels so empty without you, please

Come back

-Sparsh Pant