Dying to get away

I fell on the floor tonight and crumbled in a heap,

It started with a pain in the chest and my spirit took a leap,

I looked at myself cold, pale and empty lying there,

My face looks so innocent, and asleep - lost without a care,

And yet here I am still - a translucent form of me,

What is it about? Why don’t they see?

Running around they rush - a panic in their eyes,

They can’t see me watching them invisible in disguise,

I feel so strange a floating feeling but yet I’m still here,

The river of consciousness flowing through my form so very sheer,

A blinding light penetrates as I look into my hand,

My eyes are blue like burning sapphires as my consciousness expands,

Not sure what happened - is this the afterlife?

The truth of it seers me and cuts like a knife,

I watch the people running around to revive the lifeless form,

It doesn’t even look like me and they all look so forlorn,

My vessel is so strange from here a shedding of a skin,

The whole essence of me was there buried deep within,

I now understand what I am before the holy haze,

What the purpose was - for these strange earthly days,

A butterfly I was contained in flesh and bone,

Within the vessel my essence that could return home,

However I need to show them - my work was still not done,

I needed to return to show the world how to be run,

My guide is with me - a being that’s oh so bright,

Takes his hand and directs it to my body with blinding light,

So reluctantly I returned maintaining my butterfly form,

Into the vessel for another bout allowing it to transform,

The skin breathes alive again as colour returns to it,

The circulatory system beats again in sync it hasn’t quit,

To spread the love and joy around to all the world and show,

That we can be united and the world can finally know,

So opening my eyes and I finally breathe again,

Renewed in my quest and renewed in the pain,

But it needs to be learned the truth should be spread,

I could not stay there on the floor lying totally dead,

A light will breathe from the words and sparkle from my chest,

So feel the truth that come beyond the grave and digest,

Don’t spread any hatred, don’t spread no lies,

Keep yourself searching and reach up to the skies,

Help your friends and neighbours, be kind to everyone,

Because you will realise only when they’re gone,

What you should have said while you’re living in regret,

How you treat them when dancing with a silhouette,

Don’t wait till people are gone to show them that you care,

Prove it to them now while they are alive and still there,

Don’t stop believing, keep yourself afloat,

Do good to all others - and that is what she wrote ❤️