"Drunk Chick"

"Drunk Chick"

I’d like to believe that I’m okay

That in my mind, I can justify

The highs and the lows

Moving too fast,

Never too slow

They say the past is the past

But I’m living in it

Wishing for these moments to last

Because I can’t just slow down

Because every time

I take another drink

Every time I think

That I can handle my obstacles

With just another bottle

I know where that leads me

Another empty glass, and it’s history

Another empty bathtub

Another empty apartment

Another empty grave

But I’ve got to stop myself;

I’ve got to say “be brave”

Because the pain will go away

The pain won’t last

Take one step forward,

But not too fast.

Like I said before

The past is the past

I can’t live there anymore

I am here now

I know exactly how to heal

Living in this moment,

This moment is real

For once I just want to

Take that in, savor it,

Feeling free once again.