Don’t tell them I never did enough

You don’t get to make me into the monster for leaving..

I have rolled with your tides, and battled the raging waves of emotions unhinged..

You don’t get to tell me I am shallow when I’ve swam in the depths of the dark abyss, and fought your demons that you were too afraid to face..

You don’t get to paint me into a picture of broken bones, and a lighthouse without its beacon..

I have picked up the pieces of our loves shattered glass that bloodied my feet at your expense..

I have climbed the decaying steps of heartache, and shined my light for your way home until I could no longer stand in waiting..

You don’t get to shame me for the way I’ve chosen to heal..

I have felt the cold, and salty winds choke down the words I desperately needed to purge..

I have drowned in my tears of fear, doubt, and sorrow..

I have gone blind to the winds of your anger forcing my eyes to see a calm in the storm..

I have given my all into sailing with a heart that questioned my worth..

So you see.. I can no longer brace for impact for another tidal wave of destruction..

I will bottle up our love, cut my lips to seal its letter of a bittersweet goodbye, and throw it out to sea..

I will take in a heavy breath.. let it sink between my ribs.. Rest until the burn of a morning sun, and let The will of will be done..

No, You do not get to tell them I never did enough.