Distant memories

Distant memories bleeding into my dreams. Recollections of you vanishing at the seams.

Thought I saw you where we always spent our days.

Out by the water like it was our secret hideaway or getaway but anyway

It wasn’t you, to my dismay

But actually more factually if I’m being honest then honestly I had hoped to see you again

Cuz I just wanna say that I’m sorry

For all the things I did right before we

Ever made some type of connection

Friendly affection never objected led us in the direction of convection

Now I’m drowning in the waves of your rejection

It’s the natural selection

I was young, dumb, and too hungry for love

And now all I feel is numb

How do I erase such memories that gave me so much joy?

These stories in my head weighing on me like avoirdupois

Cloud atlas souls that once were intertwined or the eternal sunshine of the spotless mind?

Distant memories bleeding into my dreams. Recollections of you vanishing at the seams.

I’d admit it. I fucked it up. Now I have to nip it in the bud.

But these magnolias are too precious.

Pressing flowers will preserve their essence, but not indefinitely.

The gift or curse of time will fade them delicately, eloquently.

Bittersweet evanescence is a delicacy

I was blessed to be in your presence

It was sweet and pleasant,

You were so present

I felt accepted, I was in heaven

But then I let jealousy get the best of me

I was greedy, I was a menace

I learned my lesson, putting myself through penance

I hope I come out wiser

My mind a little wider

These memories are now my reminder

Distant memories bleeding into my dreams. Recollections of you vanishing at the seams.