Disassociated

I stare at the reflection

Of a stranger looking back

A one clean soul

Now stained black

I fail to recognize her

This anonymous character

This cannot be me

It won’t register

What happened to her glow?

The light in her eyes?

Now just a void

Covered in a sort of disguise

What happened?

Where did I go?

I just want to be proud

But I’m stuck in this shadow

Maybe if I was my face

Add some lipstick

Maybe just maybe

I can be a little less homesick

It’s not working

I want to go back to before

Rid of this person

To be someone I could adore

This can’t be real

Some sort of dream

That reconstructs the whole of me

With some shitty self-esteem

Okay, time to wake up

But this intruder refuses to fade

This is who I am now

What these past years have made