Disappointment

I'm sad when my stuff's overlooked

Or doesn't make the cut

I tell myself it's fine, okay

It's just a dry spell, but

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Words don't equate with wins well-earned

Those wins I never see

Why must I tell myself it's fine

It looked OK to me.

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For turns of phrase, I struggle now

To grasp the words that will

Describe, fulfill, my thoughts anew

I should give up, but still

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An errant thought will make its way

To frolic in my head

Ignore it I can never do

No matter what is said

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I’m way too late, the time is gone

I thought there was some hope

But when reality intrudes

I mutter, sigh and mope

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Begone, you false, deceptive thoughts

I do not want you here

You've let me down too many times

A zillion just this year

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Someday I'll rally, claim my place

To write is in my blood

But though I try my very best

Again it is a dud.