Destruction

Bleak but violently bleeding

Silently screaming

My limit receding

Anxiety exceeding

Delirium increasing

OCD slowly feasting

Bpd quickly killing

Who is me

When these feelings aren't extreme

It's all too much for me

I need to get my hands dirty

Split me

Mark me

Watching the blood draw

Dripping like a painting

Beautifully

It's what I like to see

My eyes admiring

Doing something so deserving

The thoughts so addicting

Imagining it all leaving

So seducing

So soothing.

Who is me

Without dissociating

There's something around me

That I can't see

Separating me from this domain

I can't break free

No matter where I reach

It follows me

I can't feel the things I'm touching

No one turns their head to look at me

I don't think they can see me

I'm stuck spectating

I see the world rushing

As I stand still.

I can't stand this.

Misfit ina loose fit, with a noose in my grip, I'm too curious, questions got me furious, constantly conflicted, gettin delirious, what's real out of this, fully kitted with twisted wits, so sick I can't stop vomiting, my stomach is hurting, but it doesn't stop coming, someone help me, my body is weakening, I no longer have any energy, with everything, I move , stumbling, fighting against gravity, I feel extra heavy, love me, no don't , I'm not deserving, please don't leave me, no get away from me, I don't want you to see me, come here let me hold you, no wait, I'm contaminating,

I'm sorry I'm so empty

I'm sorry my eyes zig zag cause I feel everything

My thoughts spin like a fan, then spread in the circulation, becoming an infestation, corrupting everything

A fire is lighting

Now the room is smoking,

Can't see

My eyes are watering

Can't breathe I am choking

Slowly I am burning

The building is collapsing

But I don't want to leave

I get buried underneath

My destruction

Knowing

There's no resurrection.