despite

also despite the fact that I cherished him with my whole heart I actually needed to leave

I actually need to disregard his calls when he was imploring me to return

since I could forgive and never look back

however, in all actuality I always remembered somehow or another I won't ever excuse

since I gave him such countless possibilities that I was sincerely depleted

I was caught in a relationship however I really could leave and despite the fact that

I left he is still essential for my life

he actually calls and texts me however I don't have it in me to return to him and rehash everything