Desensitized

Desensitized to shame

Regain composure just the same

I do my best to test

My resiliency to pain

Carry it, bury it

Push it deep down

Then dig it up again

And see what I have found

A broken heart

A bleeding wound

That points to me in blame

It all comes out in anger

And I surrender to the game

Numb it, need it

Shove it in deep

Satisfaction instantly

But none that I can keep

It's sweet misery taunts me

Calling me back

My head is spinning

Heart is burning

Falling off track

Do I dare stop now

I've gone way too far

I don't recognize myself

Or who you even are

A voice of desperation

Calls out in pain

Help me! Save me!

I must be going insane!

The only thing left to do

Is fall in my knees

And beg the Lord for mercy

Strength and inner peace

He shows me that forgiveness

Is easily obtained

Faith hope and love

are only some of what's to gain

When I surrender my life

Completely to Him

My perception of things

Are a whole lot less grim

Bright lights magic miracles

Nurturing my soul

Salvation quickens me

And finally makes me whole