Dear Mom,

Dear mom,

May you forgive me for the weaknesses I shown.

May you honor the wraith of my transformation as you glide on airways.

May you massage my facial expressions with your peaceful vibrations.

Broken in my shadow, I create harmonious vibes to the foreplay. I don’t deserve this anger, yet I bathe in it religiously.

You guide the spirit in me,

empowered the vocals in my mind,

only to hide in a shell of despair.

I crave clarity to this confusing nightmare.

This magic trick isn’t something I can bare.

These invisible signals cover my face, only to be annihilated by energy transfers.

This day,

this game,

isn’t healthy for me anymore.

Sleepless nights lead to aggravated assaults on my mind, saying your name paralysis my soul,

Why did you go?

I miss the giggles you utter with each sentence I created.

I miss the announcement voicemails you showered me with when I couldn’t connect to you.

I miss being the guardian angel to the world you always wanted to escape from.

The hidden wounds you covered with your smile is a skill I desire.

I need your guidance.

I need your reassurance.

As you whip this pain off my pupils, they cluster up into gangs & destroy the healing traits on sight. Leaving my immune system vulnerable to intruders out of spite.

But I write this in hopes you hear me for once.

Losing you reshaped my perspective on life.

Losing you open my heart to pump love into unused veins.

Losing you changed me.

By learning your truth overtime, it constructed this message effortlessly.

I pledge to honor your legacy by perfecting a craft you blessed me with.

The ability to speak encrypted language.

I vow to break the walls of misery.

Opening up doors for spirits to warm my heart with love.

Something I wish you had all your life.

I will do what you wasn’t able to do mom,

Be you!

I will be what you always wanted to be.

After all,

I’m mommy’s baby & I know mommy loves me too.