you made me question
the state of my mental health
when it was you
that was crazy all along
you knew that tune
wasn’t good for me
and so you played
the same old song
you made me question
the very fabric
that was the bedrock
of my existence
and now this
partially shattered sanity
cause yeah
it fuckin mattered to me
but not now
now
i don’t know
anymore
i try not to show
i know i won’t care
i hope i don’t feel
i don’t want to dare
so now
i don’t know
anymore
bleating and bleeding
wanting and needing
yeah and now
i don’t know
anymore
it’s a buzz in my ear
my dour my cheer
the taste of my fear
it’s why i’m still here
and that is still why
i let it assume me
and that is still why
i let it consume me
i let these dizzy circles
spin on their own
a flurry of senseless
poorly aimed enthusiasm
slows to backwards
in reverse
and then
this is not
anything
that i know
anymore
About the Creator
Bren
"It's just a token of my extreme!" - Frank Zappa
"Cause it's all in the heat of the moment It's all in the pain!!!" - Devin Townsend
Centre Stage with the wonderful Heather Hubler
Comments (6)
This would go really well to "Waves of Fear" by Lou Reed.
This one is all too familiar for me.
Can you induce insanity.
It's sad!! A gaslighter can destroy a person. Don't walk run!!!💕❤️❤️
Sadly, that's what a narcissist and a gaslighter do to us and our mental health. Loved your poem!
"bleating and bleeding, Wanting and needing" Superb power and feeling, so intensely human. I just learned that the term "gaslighting" originally means a form of psychological manipulation whereby you deliberately induce insanity, and it comes from the title of an old 40's film.