Confessions

I always put on a brave face, I keep my mouth shut no matter what it takes but today I have some confessions to make.

because i feel like no one hears my cries for help, those i keep to myself because the world doesn't need another burden this i'm certain that the people i love don't need anyone else to help when i can do it myself but i don't think i can anymore because

I've watched people fight for their lives, I've talked a man out of suicide. You know that's the funny thing about this life, somedays your the player and somedays your the prey somedays you get everything you want and still wonder how things ended up this way.

So don't say that my battles aren't worth fighting just because my blood stained uniform don't look the way you expected it to, i got things that haunt me just like you do so no you don't get to judge the war i rage, you don't know the roads i had to make that twist and turned my fate, the slaps to the face, the punches I had to take just to get here because all my life I've been told to sweep my pain under the rug, I was told to be tough, that emotion was weakness that showed how your not good enough.

But I'm tired of being quiet I'm tired of wiping my tears away trying to hide it because you hurt me and you deserve to pay for it, you hurt me and other people are serving time for it, you hurt me and I have to forgive you for it but I don't want to, I want to hate you for all you put me through but what good is that gonna do?

But I will do everything in my power to not be like you and I know you made that same promise too when someone you loved hurt you the difference is I tell the truth.

But I know how rare honesty is in today's society hell its so rare its almost an oddity and maybe that's why I can't say it confidently, because if it wasn't for poetry no one would know the truest words that come from me

no one would know the pain that's hidden behind each line that everyone wants to push away when its story time so if you get hurt by something you read cinderella don't come crying to me because the shoe fits you perfectly.