Commitment

Commitment is a scary thing to me

I could never love something so much and stay there forever

You can tell just by how I jump from topic to topic in these poems and never

Stay in one place for too long

I resonate too much with some songs

Commitment is a scary thing as I can’t handle when I’m wrong

I Get bored too easily

And I can’t-do routines

I Once said I don’t have a heart but I was wrong my heart is just too big

It gets in the way of everything I do

I thought offering it to everyone was love

But I became a fool

Just there to entertain everyone and I’m only around now when I can help like I’m a tool

My conscience has burdened me too

Commitment is a scary thing

Because once you’re in one place for too long you’ll be given responsibilities

That are greater than my abilities

And you can get stuck somewhere so quickly

I’m trying to duck and weave then run away but I don’t have the agility

Runaway runaway just runaway

Why don’t you feel like you belong

Maybe I don’t want to

Scared I become one of you

Maybe I already am

And I’m uncomfortable in my own skin

Difference between insanity and mental health is paper thin

So I’m getting paper cuts because I’m in the middle

Maybe I’m too indecisive

Never know where I am until it’s too late

Infatuated with people who don’t care

Finding a real person is so rare

Runaway runaway just runaway

Don’t know if I’m running to or away from something

Running to money because it’s the only thing that makes me smile now

And because of it I’m a busy busy bee

Thought I was a butterfly

Have more identities than I need

But I just wanna be free