Coal (raw)

It’s almost 3AM


there’s a breeze slipping under the door


the room is filled with darkness


and I don’t know why I thought of us again,


but I did.


Memories crawl in and I’m wrapped in sheets like they’re your arms


sinking deeper
..

your love still lingers on me like scent, like heat that won’t leave my skin.

I thought it ended..


I told myself it ended. 


But no—


you still haunt me, my lover


with how we were used to be
,

how you used to say my name;


my lovely


my beautiful baby

I miss you


God I miss you


your touch


your warmth


The way it fed every part of 
me

my heart


my flesh


my soul

But you set it all on fire
, left me in the burn. 


And now, our love is just a coal.

Something cold, black and small,


but still there..

And like ashes blown into the night


I still remember the day you walked away, my love. 


I stood there, and I knew I had to leave too.


But I haven’t


not really..


not yet


only God—


only God will let me.