Capital “g“

Growing up I never capitalized my name because I didn’t deem myself important

I also thought the capital letter “g” was ugly

I was probably just projecting from what I was told my mirror sees

I loved my signature though

A large capital cursive “G” next to some scribbles

I wrote it over and over again in my notes

Like I’d eventually sign an autograph

Like I’d eventually be of importance

But only if I distorted it

I had to change

Even if I didn’t

Because if I stayed the same

I wouldn’t be like them

Id stay hidden

Until I wasn’t

I’d blend in

Camoflouge

Write the normal capital “g”

Like I wasn’t disgusted

After all

My hand writing was superb

But not superb enough to beat my friend in the suburbs

Constant competition and I never won

Was it her I was trying to be?

Or did I just deem her as important and myself as a minion?

She got all the attention

All of the friends

Her parents were like my parents but they never failed to let me know I’d never ascend

That I’d never write as neat as them

I took the pen and wrote until my little hands hurt

I needed to make it look like it was printed from a computer

I needed it to look like hers

Years of this

Until I was given a gift

I was given morales

And I realized she had none of it

I was better at something

I saw her sign her name

Thinking she was all so important

Thinking she’d be famous one day

But my cursive capital “G” knocked her cursive capital “t” out of the park we used to play

A beautiful loop compared to a barely curved line

There was actually no comparison

I wasn’t like her

And realized I never would be

I wouldn’t stay hidden

Because I know longer wanted her to like me

Because if she did then

I was just a appendage of hers

I would have been her hand

Writing capital cursive for her because she wouldn’t care to learn

But I finally did it for me

I still think capital “G’s” are ugly

And sometimes still choose lowercase

But when it’s something important

I proudly print & sign the biggest and boldest capital G’s